Struggling...

Hi! Remember me! I'm still here. My computer crashed last week. This is not the first time it has crashed but this time was disastrous for me. I had to do a complete system restore on my computer. Completely reformatted the hard drive and of course I started using the computer again and started to overwrite the files not knowing that once the files have been overwritten it is very difficult to get the files back. This was something I did not know I should not be doing. I thought no problem, I pay for back up service for my computer. Guess what for some reason my back up didn't work properly. I have figured that it seems to be a problem with this computer. that I have considered taking a hammer to After this crash I went to get back my files and most of my pictures were GONE! What was saved were the same pictures over and over. I shed many tears over loosing my beloved pictures. Memories of my sweet boys forever gone. Field trips, special days, ordinary days, school days, happy days, sad days, all GONE.

One of my goals for 2009 was to catch up on all my pictures. Several years worth. Well I guess It won't take quite as long now. I am just sad. I know it is not the end of the world. There are many more serious problems in the world. Life goes on, new memories are made. I'm still sad. So many things I forget, but could look at a picture and remember exactly when and where we were doing. I have sought advice about getting my pictures back and most have said that they were not retrievable or possibly they were but there is no guarantee and it seems it would cost upwards of $2000 to get them. IF they could guarantee them back, I'd pay it in a heart beat. Sigh......

I also have another issue going on. I'm scared and praying it is nothing or not too scary. I covet your prayers for this unspoken request. In the mean time I'll be catching you all up on what we've been up to in the last week or so.

Oh and when I told Justin that I had lost so many pictures he said don't worry mommy we can take new pictures and make new memories. Geez I just got down crying and here I go again! Have I mentioned how much I love my boys! I am one lucky momma!

On the bright side I have learned a lot about computers and have become great friends with the computer tech. Oh and I need a new hard drive which will be here on Tuesday. Yay!

Oh and one more thing, back up, burn and save your files in more than one place! Don't learn the hard way like I did!

Thanks for those of you who have emailed and wondered where I was and if I was ok. It is nice to be missed and I've missed blogging.